Saturday, November 05, 2005

Painful days...

Ok I'm sitting here once again, just taking things "one day at a time", or better yet, today I've been trying to take things one moment, or one hour at a time, and waiting for this day to end, and hopefully to wake up to a much better one tomorrow.
I've been having not only 'one of those days', but several of those days lately where for me, the pain has been so great, and all over that it's such an effort to get around. I know it may seem to some that I'm just sitting here complaining about the pain, but if they had to live with the constant, everyday pain, for years, and years, knowing that it will never likely go away, then I think perhaps others might be writing about their pain too. If I stand for any time my legs and esp. my knee's are throbbing with pain. If I sit too long, they are still hurting, and weak and it's all I can do to just stand up and get around. Even sitting here, I'm not sure where I hurt worse. My fingers, my hands, my arms, my neck, my head, my chest, my ribs, my back, my stomach, my legs, knees, feet......
Some days the pain is not as bad as others, but those days seem to be few & far between. Lately the pain has just been so constant, and never ending, and bad. Right now I can't even touch my sides as they are so painful. My fingers and hands are stiff with the arthritis that is in them, and tonight is one of those times when it does hurt to sit here and type. I just have to keep believing that there is a reason for it and for all that I go thro', and all that others much endure in their lives.
Sometimes it's really difficult to understand why bad things happen to us, or what we must go thro' the trials we are forced to endure. I suppose if I'm able to help someone else who has had a hard time then that is something I need to try and do.
I know I've put some weight on lately, so I fear that this is adding to my pain, and it's something I really need to try and do something about. I cannot continue to put on the weight, and eat things that will add to it. Somehow I need to find out what foods might possibly be aggravating things.
Right now I can't sit here any longer, so I need to say goodnight and try to move about, and loosen things up so I can get up the stairs...now that should be interesting tonight!

2 comments:

mo said...

Wow, my prayers are with you! Hope you're feeling better soon.

Dawn said...

Thanks Mo. Prayers are always most welcome & appreciated.