Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Resting in Him

Over the past few months, I've been fighting depression, and experiencing a flare-up with my fibromyalgia. I have good days and bad, but lately there have been more bad than good. I certainly hope that a change in weather brings about a change in this fibro flare, and that somehow there will also be a change in things that are going on in my life.
Today the pain has been really bad. It hurts not only to get up and walk, but just standing or sitting. The pain is all over, from my fingers to my toes, from my head & neck, thro' my back and down my legs. My legs,neck & shoulders seem to be the worst of these areas, and I'm really weak getting up and down the stairs. I've been sitting here in a fog all day and feeling like I needed to get some paperwork done, but unable to concentrate on any of it. I get really frustrated with myself when I get like this and nothing seems to really get done around here. I know I need to be doing more, and I really do try, esp. when I'm having a better day. After reading someone else's blog today, I'm beginning to realize that perhaps this is one of those days when I need to learn to rest in the Lord, and be content in His surroundings and start counting my blessings and be thankful for the good days and for all I have been blessed with in my life. A roof over my head, food on the table, family, friends, a place to worship & praise God, and the ability to be able to get up and sing in our worship team. All over this world there are people so much less fortunate in all of these areas. I need to remember them and ask God to watch over them and to bless their lives & enrich them. I need to be thankful for a day to just rest as I need to and to enjoy the wonders of having a computer and being able to communicate with others thro' it. Even when I am confined to my home by my pain, I am never alone. God is with me always, and I have a means of reaching out to others thro' the phone & the computer. Amazing creations...
There are others who need my prayers, and I need to make better use of these days of rest and spend more quality time reaching out to my heavenly Father, and take my focus off of what I'm feeling, and as I do this, learn to Rest in Him.

2 comments:

The Reverend said...

praying for focus and relief, my heart goes out to you.

Dawn said...

Thanks. I really do appreciate your concern. Thinking of you, and trusting you are ok!