Well we've certainly had a very hot, humid summer so far. Of course it would be the summer we chose not to go away anywhere. The money we might have used to pay for a vacation was applied towards a new fridge which we were in desperate need of. The seals on the old fridge were no longer any good, and the fridge was going from warm to extra cold. We had so many things freeze each week, or another time the temp. would be too high. An ideal place for getting food poisoning, and watching food spoil. Definitely time for a new refridgerator. We went out shopping, checking out prices, brands and styles. Finally settled on a fridge with a bottum drawer freezer, and the double doors. Has a little more space, and actually keeps the food at a normal temp. so we are quite happy with our purchase.
Thank goodness for air conditioning. It certainly makes a big difference on these hot nights we are experiencing. It also makes for some great relief after I've spent the day running about all over in the heat. I'm sure there are a lot of people out there who are enjoying these warm temperatures, and making the most of the these days for sunning themselves, and enjoying the many water activities that the summer offers.
It would certainly be a nice time to be at a cottage, sitting under the shade of the trees, or jumping off the dock into the lovely cool water, and having the opportunity to swim about, and cool off. As the day passes by, it would be nice to make a trip back down to the dock for some fishing, and to sit and view the splendour of the setting sun, a brilliant yelow/orange and even red hues, as it slowly drops down below the trees in all it's glory. The day wouldn't be over yet. Soon it would be time to start the campfire, and sit down to relax and unwind with family and friends, roasting marshmallows, sharing some stories, and listening to the quiet of the evening. Off in the distance, one of the many sounds I love to listen to, is the sound of the loons as they call back and forth to one another. Occasionally we'd hear a the croaking of a bullfrog, or the swoosh of wings as a bat dips down in it's chase for bugs. High above us the stars glow brightly, and we are able to see the Big and small Dipper. It's really amazing how much more you can see when you're out in the wide open spaces away from the city lights.
As the fire slowly burns out, we all start making our way back to our own cottages, where it's time to think about heading off to bed. But wait... it's not bedtime yet. It's the perfect time to curl up with a good book, and to enjoy some quiet time with no TV or phones to disturb anyone. It's nice to be able to enjoy a book and to read till your tired, knowing that if you want you can actually sleep in the next morning. It's also a great time to get up and watch the sunrise, or to try my hand at fishing once again.
Ah, it's time to wake up. Well I was up at the crack of dawn today, unable to sleep because of the pain. Seems the narrowing of the spinal column or spinal stenosis as they call it, can be quite painful, sending sharp pains into my hip and down my leg. I just couldn't get comfortable once I woke up, and I couldn't stand the pain. All I wanted to do was to stretch out on my back and to ease into my pillow and sleep. Unfortunately the one thing that you would think would help only makes it worse. Laying down brings the pain on, and the only way I can get any sleep these days is by laying on my other side, and grabbing a little sleep here and there. This morning I'm so, so tired, and although I've taken some pain medication, it's not done a whole lot in relieving my pain today.
It's something it seems I must either learn to live with, or face back surgery. Not a very pleasant thought. Neither is!
Anyway, the day is half done now, so I really need to get moving and get something done. The best thing I can manage is to just take things one day at a time, and keep trusting in God to lead me through where ever he would have me be.
Friday, August 06, 2010
Friday, April 02, 2010
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Tues. Oct. 20th.
Here it is Oct. 20th. I don't even know anymore where my days seem to disappear to, but the time just seems to go by so fast. Perhaps the busyness of my days is the reason. Running two teens around, trying to keep track of their various working schedules, along with sports events for my youngest. They seem to have a practice or game every day of the week. Then there's my father who I take to dialysis three mornings a week, and any extra appointments, errands etc. I end up taking him to as well. Then someplace in there I have to schedule my own appointments. This month has been rather hectic as I attempt to fit in more than usual in preparation for my cataract surgery coming up, and knowing that the specialist would rather I am not driving for approx. two weeks after that. I'm sure my eldest will be happy to hear that she can take the car and actually have it to drive around that week...well that's if I decide to allow her... lol
The streets around our neighbourhood are being torn up all over the place as they put in new water pipes and sewer pipes I believe. Sometimes we don't have water, and a lot of the people in the one area have to end up parking their cars all along the various roads. So far we've had the use of our drive, although there were a few times I wondered if we'd be able to get out of it. With all the trucks and the various supplies stashed along the roadway, I've wondered how I'd get out and around them. There are long rubber pipes, piles of sand & gravel, huge cement things and a number of things I have no idea about. Today was one of those days that we did without water. Apparently they broke a water line someplace with their digging and were having to dig up more ground and trying to locate and fix the broken line. Each day for almost a month now, it's been a constant drum of noise as the various trucks and tractors drive back and forth and in and out of the streets, and bang and clunk things up and down and in and out. It's starts bright and early at 7am and goes right through till at least 5pm. Well at least most everyday. I do believe that they stop earlier on Friday's, and then there's a lunch time break when they all stop and sit down and eat their lunch. There is no ashphalt out anywhere along the road so when it rains it's a mass of mud and water. The more the trucks drive over the road the more holes that show up in the ground. I can't help wondering what kind of mess we will be stuck with once it grows colder and it snows? When will they be digging in front of our house and how long are we gonna have to park on another road and walk down to get the car? Definitely not something to look forward to once the snow starts to fall. I just hope that this doesn't happen on the day of my eye surgery!!
On another note, I've been doing much better since my knee replacement surgery. I don't have the constant pain 24/7 like I used to. Unfortunately having my knees done hasn't got rid of the pain I'm having from my sciatica, but so far it's been something I can tolerate after all the pain I used to get. I've even been going out with a friend and trying to do some walking when I can. The other day I walked half a mile, which was a real accomplishment for me. The past few years or more have been really difficult for me to do any walking as the pain was just so bad, and my knees would also give out on me. Anyway, I just need to get out there walking and 'try' to get in better shape if nothing else.
Having been doing much reading because of my cataract. The more I try to read the blurry it seems to go, so I'm looking forward to some down time and hopefully better vision when the surgery is all done.
Hubby just got back from his hunting trip. They were about a 6 or 7 hour drive north of Barrie. Only six of them went hunting for moose, but they got two moose, so at least we can be thankful for some meat in the freezer...something that takes the place of my buying cuts of beef over the winter.
Just learned that the pastor of our church has accepted a calling way up in Thunder Bay starting in 2010. I imagine it will be a big change for him and his family, being so far north, and much further away from both of their families, but I certainly wish them all the best as they make this change and trust that we will be able to find another Pastor who will work out. Both of my daughters have babysat for them, and I've even filled in to help with the childcare at times. They've been here for 10 years and become part of our church family, so it will be sad to see them leave. I'm sure they will be missed!! Seems to be many changes happening lately. Weddings, funerals, farewells... but I suppose it's all just a part of life.
Today was a gorgeous sunny fall day. The temp. got up into the 60's which was a most welcome thing. Almost a perfect day in regards to temperature...at least in my view. I meant to get out for a walk, but just had too many errands to do. At least I was in and out, and had the car windows open all the time I was out. Something I won't likely be doing for some time now if the weatherman is right.
If you're reading this, I hope that your life is going well, and that all your dreams will come true. God Bless You.
The streets around our neighbourhood are being torn up all over the place as they put in new water pipes and sewer pipes I believe. Sometimes we don't have water, and a lot of the people in the one area have to end up parking their cars all along the various roads. So far we've had the use of our drive, although there were a few times I wondered if we'd be able to get out of it. With all the trucks and the various supplies stashed along the roadway, I've wondered how I'd get out and around them. There are long rubber pipes, piles of sand & gravel, huge cement things and a number of things I have no idea about. Today was one of those days that we did without water. Apparently they broke a water line someplace with their digging and were having to dig up more ground and trying to locate and fix the broken line. Each day for almost a month now, it's been a constant drum of noise as the various trucks and tractors drive back and forth and in and out of the streets, and bang and clunk things up and down and in and out. It's starts bright and early at 7am and goes right through till at least 5pm. Well at least most everyday. I do believe that they stop earlier on Friday's, and then there's a lunch time break when they all stop and sit down and eat their lunch. There is no ashphalt out anywhere along the road so when it rains it's a mass of mud and water. The more the trucks drive over the road the more holes that show up in the ground. I can't help wondering what kind of mess we will be stuck with once it grows colder and it snows? When will they be digging in front of our house and how long are we gonna have to park on another road and walk down to get the car? Definitely not something to look forward to once the snow starts to fall. I just hope that this doesn't happen on the day of my eye surgery!!
On another note, I've been doing much better since my knee replacement surgery. I don't have the constant pain 24/7 like I used to. Unfortunately having my knees done hasn't got rid of the pain I'm having from my sciatica, but so far it's been something I can tolerate after all the pain I used to get. I've even been going out with a friend and trying to do some walking when I can. The other day I walked half a mile, which was a real accomplishment for me. The past few years or more have been really difficult for me to do any walking as the pain was just so bad, and my knees would also give out on me. Anyway, I just need to get out there walking and 'try' to get in better shape if nothing else.
Having been doing much reading because of my cataract. The more I try to read the blurry it seems to go, so I'm looking forward to some down time and hopefully better vision when the surgery is all done.
Hubby just got back from his hunting trip. They were about a 6 or 7 hour drive north of Barrie. Only six of them went hunting for moose, but they got two moose, so at least we can be thankful for some meat in the freezer...something that takes the place of my buying cuts of beef over the winter.
Just learned that the pastor of our church has accepted a calling way up in Thunder Bay starting in 2010. I imagine it will be a big change for him and his family, being so far north, and much further away from both of their families, but I certainly wish them all the best as they make this change and trust that we will be able to find another Pastor who will work out. Both of my daughters have babysat for them, and I've even filled in to help with the childcare at times. They've been here for 10 years and become part of our church family, so it will be sad to see them leave. I'm sure they will be missed!! Seems to be many changes happening lately. Weddings, funerals, farewells... but I suppose it's all just a part of life.
Today was a gorgeous sunny fall day. The temp. got up into the 60's which was a most welcome thing. Almost a perfect day in regards to temperature...at least in my view. I meant to get out for a walk, but just had too many errands to do. At least I was in and out, and had the car windows open all the time I was out. Something I won't likely be doing for some time now if the weatherman is right.
If you're reading this, I hope that your life is going well, and that all your dreams will come true. God Bless You.
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Who Says a Proper Lady Can't Carry a Knife?
Introducing a new author....
Check out the following site: http://www.KathryneKennedy.com to learn more about her newest book "MY UNFAIR LADY, along with some of the other books Kathryne has written. You'll be glad that you did.
BLURB: WHO SAYS A PROPER LADY CAN'T CARRY A KNIFE?
www.Kathryne Kennedy.com
For anyone who is interested in some stories about magic, mayham, fantasy and romance, I do believe you will enjoy her books.
Happy reading.
Dawn
Check out the following site: http://www.KathryneKennedy.com to learn more about her newest book "MY UNFAIR LADY, along with some of the other books Kathryne has written. You'll be glad that you did.
BLURB: WHO SAYS A PROPER LADY CAN'T CARRY A KNIFE?
www.Kathryne Kennedy.com
For anyone who is interested in some stories about magic, mayham, fantasy and romance, I do believe you will enjoy her books.
Happy reading.
Dawn
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Springs Promise
It's springtime here in Canada, although it's progression is somewhat different in each of the various provinces. Our west coast is usually further ahead with its spring buds, and flowers as their temperatures rise quicker. Still it has been a strange winter, and we have heard of many winter storms hitting B.C. including the Vancouver area and on the island. It's not that they don't get snow there, it's just that they don't usually see very much of it, especially in comparison to what we see here in Ontario.
We have already had some mild, sunny days where all we needed was a light sweater, but today that was not the case. We awoke to find a light layer of snow all over everything, and a cold winter wind. It is the beginning of April so we know that it is unlikely that it will stay for very long, but it's still is something we are tired of seeing at this point in time.
With the changing seasons comes a change in the types of sports that are being played within the schools. One of my daughters is really into sports. In September she started off by playing basketball, then progressed to volleyball, and now she is into rugby. She is also on a rep team that plays basketball against other teams in a certain area, which has meant some travelling to various towns and cities. This weekend she has been off playing various games and competing against other teams. She left early this morning to go to Toronto, and won't be returning till late tonight. It is something she really enjoys, and seems to also do well in. It's never been something I was very good at or able to do, but it seems that many of the sports are played according to the different season's.
With the arrival of spring comes the promise of fresh new life. new growth, warmer temperatures, and cool nights. For many it is a time of awakening after a long, cold winter. A time when many 'spring' into life and busyness as they change their patterns of living, and try to become more active again. Spring cleaning, cleaning up the mess left around from winter, raking, planting, making plans, walking and getting out more are just a few of the things people do. With April, comes the traditional spring showers, and Eastertime. A time when many celebrate the arrival of the Easter bunny, with his basket full of chocolate goodies and treats. Good Friday - a day that is celebrated in memory of that time when Christ was forced to walk through the streets and carry the same cross that He was nailed and hung upon. Easter Sunday -a day when we celebrate God's gift of eternal life, the day when Christ rose from the dead, and left the tomb where He had been laid, and showed us the true miracle of His walk from death into life ~ a brand new, fresh start of eternal life.
It is a time of renewed life, faith, trust, and hope in the promise of all God has provided for us. It is the promise of awakening life, a fresh new start, a reason to have hope, and as well a reason to have faith in what is yet to come.
Put on your Easter bonnet, your new spring outfit, or something that brings the brightness of spring into your heart. Go for a walk, a run, or maybe even skip joyously along. Yesterday is done and over, and we hope the same goes for winter. We cannot change what is behind us, but we can learn from it, and look forward to a bright new tomorrow. Even more, we can be truly thankful for what we have TODAY... live, love, laugh and make the most of what God has blessed us with Today, living it to the fullest with God at the helm.
We have already had some mild, sunny days where all we needed was a light sweater, but today that was not the case. We awoke to find a light layer of snow all over everything, and a cold winter wind. It is the beginning of April so we know that it is unlikely that it will stay for very long, but it's still is something we are tired of seeing at this point in time.
With the changing seasons comes a change in the types of sports that are being played within the schools. One of my daughters is really into sports. In September she started off by playing basketball, then progressed to volleyball, and now she is into rugby. She is also on a rep team that plays basketball against other teams in a certain area, which has meant some travelling to various towns and cities. This weekend she has been off playing various games and competing against other teams. She left early this morning to go to Toronto, and won't be returning till late tonight. It is something she really enjoys, and seems to also do well in. It's never been something I was very good at or able to do, but it seems that many of the sports are played according to the different season's.
With the arrival of spring comes the promise of fresh new life. new growth, warmer temperatures, and cool nights. For many it is a time of awakening after a long, cold winter. A time when many 'spring' into life and busyness as they change their patterns of living, and try to become more active again. Spring cleaning, cleaning up the mess left around from winter, raking, planting, making plans, walking and getting out more are just a few of the things people do. With April, comes the traditional spring showers, and Eastertime. A time when many celebrate the arrival of the Easter bunny, with his basket full of chocolate goodies and treats. Good Friday - a day that is celebrated in memory of that time when Christ was forced to walk through the streets and carry the same cross that He was nailed and hung upon. Easter Sunday -a day when we celebrate God's gift of eternal life, the day when Christ rose from the dead, and left the tomb where He had been laid, and showed us the true miracle of His walk from death into life ~ a brand new, fresh start of eternal life.
It is a time of renewed life, faith, trust, and hope in the promise of all God has provided for us. It is the promise of awakening life, a fresh new start, a reason to have hope, and as well a reason to have faith in what is yet to come.
Put on your Easter bonnet, your new spring outfit, or something that brings the brightness of spring into your heart. Go for a walk, a run, or maybe even skip joyously along. Yesterday is done and over, and we hope the same goes for winter. We cannot change what is behind us, but we can learn from it, and look forward to a bright new tomorrow. Even more, we can be truly thankful for what we have TODAY... live, love, laugh and make the most of what God has blessed us with Today, living it to the fullest with God at the helm.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
The Past
This is a poem I wrote quite some time back, and never really finished, so now I've tried.........
I sit here in a stupor
Wondering just what to do
Looking all around me
And feeling rather blue.
I'm not sure what to offer
Or even what to say
I'm looking all around me,
And watch as skies turn gray.
My life is full of turmoil
With things that shouldn't be
I cannot stand the anger
Or words that come too freely.
I try to keep the noise down
To entertain the kids
To keep the housework finished
And make sure things are hid.
To make sure meals are ready
And that I'm always here
Or if I go off shopping
To always be right near.
I cannot speak to neighbours
Especially not the men
So most the time I sit here
With paper and a pen.
My friends don't come to visit
Most felt they couldn't stay
And seldom could I visit them
So now they've gone their way.
I often walked around in fear
And worried how to act
Afraid to say the wrong things
And trying to use some tact.
Things were always screwed up,
Filled with stress and strife
I felt like quite a stranger
Instead of someone's wife.
I always felt so tensed up
Not sure of what to do.
Until things reached an impact
And the fear in me just grew.
The anger seemed to grow within me
No longer could I hold it in
I left to do my own thing
But knew I'd never win.
And on that fateful day
When I went to see a friend,
I came back when I wanted to
Instead upon demand.
That night turned into terror
When I got punched in the face
Then the police were called upon.
While I tried to seek out God's grace.
It was a night so filled with fear,
All alone I sat that night
My children in another's care
So full of fear and fright.
Life changed for us completely
Within that awful time
When fear took over all my life
It was an awful crime.
Thankfully things change with time
And fears start to subside
My life changed so completely
And God did so provide.
Those things are distant memories.
Life goes on, although it is subdued
No matter what went on within the past
We can only live our lives right through.
I sit here in a stupor
Wondering just what to do
Looking all around me
And feeling rather blue.
I'm not sure what to offer
Or even what to say
I'm looking all around me,
And watch as skies turn gray.
My life is full of turmoil
With things that shouldn't be
I cannot stand the anger
Or words that come too freely.
I try to keep the noise down
To entertain the kids
To keep the housework finished
And make sure things are hid.
To make sure meals are ready
And that I'm always here
Or if I go off shopping
To always be right near.
I cannot speak to neighbours
Especially not the men
So most the time I sit here
With paper and a pen.
My friends don't come to visit
Most felt they couldn't stay
And seldom could I visit them
So now they've gone their way.
I often walked around in fear
And worried how to act
Afraid to say the wrong things
And trying to use some tact.
Things were always screwed up,
Filled with stress and strife
I felt like quite a stranger
Instead of someone's wife.
I always felt so tensed up
Not sure of what to do.
Until things reached an impact
And the fear in me just grew.
The anger seemed to grow within me
No longer could I hold it in
I left to do my own thing
But knew I'd never win.
And on that fateful day
When I went to see a friend,
I came back when I wanted to
Instead upon demand.
That night turned into terror
When I got punched in the face
Then the police were called upon.
While I tried to seek out God's grace.
It was a night so filled with fear,
All alone I sat that night
My children in another's care
So full of fear and fright.
Life changed for us completely
Within that awful time
When fear took over all my life
It was an awful crime.
Thankfully things change with time
And fears start to subside
My life changed so completely
And God did so provide.
Those things are distant memories.
Life goes on, although it is subdued
No matter what went on within the past
We can only live our lives right through.
A Mystery
Life is a mystery
Of that I am sure
There is much that we do not know
So much that is a blur.
Things we could guess at
With lots that we cannot
Things that we might learn from
So much info that has been sought.
No matter what the story
There is only one who knows
The true answers to all things
That all His knowledge shows.
He is the true creator
Our Father from above
He is the one to turn to
The Lord and God of LOVE.
Jan. 11, 2009
"Dawn"
Of that I am sure
There is much that we do not know
So much that is a blur.
Things we could guess at
With lots that we cannot
Things that we might learn from
So much info that has been sought.
No matter what the story
There is only one who knows
The true answers to all things
That all His knowledge shows.
He is the true creator
Our Father from above
He is the one to turn to
The Lord and God of LOVE.
Jan. 11, 2009
"Dawn"
Monday, November 03, 2008
Mon. Nov. 3, 2008
Where does the time go to? It's been awhile since I last came to post anything. There always seems to be lots of things to do, or I'm not really feeling up to doing much of it. Since I last posted, I've had knee replacement surgery and spent a week in the hospital. It actually wasn't as bad as what I was expecting, but one thing I know, is that they really need to make sure people are given enough pain medication for those first few weeks in order to keep the pain lowered so they can get enough sleep through the nights and be able to get about during the day and do the things that need to be done. I'm not trying to kid anyone by saying that there was no pain, because there was, but it was tolerable in that I was able to get through it and not be afraid to get the other knee done. I'm more than prepared to get the other knee done now that I know what to expect. It's so very nice not to have the constant pain 24/7 in my right knee like I was getting before, and thankfully they did the surgery on the knee that was the worst.
The day that I went in to have the surgery, I was really worried about what to expect, and concerned about all the possible risks that come along with any kind of surgery. They gave me a sedative to relax me then got all of my information and vitals, and rolled me into surgery. Once there they did a spinal and froze the lower half of my body and started the surgery. An additional sedative helped relax me more, but I remained awake and only drowsy. I wasn't really able to see very much without my glasses and the sheet that they draped up in front of me. I knew they were moving my leg around and painting it with iodine/disenfectant. I'm not really sure how long the surgery actually took, but at least when it was done and over with I was moved to the recovery room for a little while then up to my room, where at least I was awake and not having to worry about the effects of any anesthetic. They got me up the following morning to move as far as the bathroom, and each day it was a little more moving and bending the leg till I could get more movement out of it. My surgery was a Tues. and I was back home on the Tues. I was still in a lot of pain that week and struggling to get around, but I managed. Physiotherapy helped along with just regular use of my leg and knee along with some pain medication to help me through the worst of it. While it still hurts at times, it is nothing in comparison to the constant pain that I used to get all of the time. At least now I can get around better with much less pain.
We also managed to get away on our vacation in August, and I was able to start driving and getting around better. Jen was also able to drive which made it much easier to do things, and now she actually has her driver's licence which she managed to get in Sept.
With the changing weather, and drop in the temperature, along with much damper weather, I am finding it a struggle again to get around on my other knee which is still full of arthritis. I am also finding I am struggling with the pain from the fibromyalgia some days, but I know that is gonna be a problem anyway. Now if I could just get out walking more, and start losing some weight, I imagine it would help to reduce my weight and possibly help with the pain.
Anyway, life goes on....!!
There have been many other situations to deal with around here, some of which I can't get into. One thing that happened at the end of our holidays, is that Earl developed pain in his one leg, and after he returned to work, found it very painful and hard to stand on. The leg also swelled up, and had a large bruise on it, so he ended up going to emergency only to learn that he had a rather large blood clot in his leg. They put him on pain medication as well as blood thinners, and he had to keep his leg up and rested for quite some time as well as not being able to drive, so I had to be driving him all over for awhile. Thankfully he is now back to work, and we are anxious for his first pay check to finally come in, and try to get some bills paid, before they start shutting things down on us.
The girls are both in high school, and J is still working at McD's. It's gonna be a lot more work for her this year and next so hopefully she's able to get through it all. B got involved in the basketball team shortly after school started and she had been enjoying that every since. K is also there this year. They are growing up so fast!!
Well, we are into November now, and it won't be long till winter arrives. Yikes....not looking forward to that, or the winter driving and especially not in letting J drive through it. It can be pretty rough driving around here.
The day that I went in to have the surgery, I was really worried about what to expect, and concerned about all the possible risks that come along with any kind of surgery. They gave me a sedative to relax me then got all of my information and vitals, and rolled me into surgery. Once there they did a spinal and froze the lower half of my body and started the surgery. An additional sedative helped relax me more, but I remained awake and only drowsy. I wasn't really able to see very much without my glasses and the sheet that they draped up in front of me. I knew they were moving my leg around and painting it with iodine/disenfectant. I'm not really sure how long the surgery actually took, but at least when it was done and over with I was moved to the recovery room for a little while then up to my room, where at least I was awake and not having to worry about the effects of any anesthetic. They got me up the following morning to move as far as the bathroom, and each day it was a little more moving and bending the leg till I could get more movement out of it. My surgery was a Tues. and I was back home on the Tues. I was still in a lot of pain that week and struggling to get around, but I managed. Physiotherapy helped along with just regular use of my leg and knee along with some pain medication to help me through the worst of it. While it still hurts at times, it is nothing in comparison to the constant pain that I used to get all of the time. At least now I can get around better with much less pain.
We also managed to get away on our vacation in August, and I was able to start driving and getting around better. Jen was also able to drive which made it much easier to do things, and now she actually has her driver's licence which she managed to get in Sept.
With the changing weather, and drop in the temperature, along with much damper weather, I am finding it a struggle again to get around on my other knee which is still full of arthritis. I am also finding I am struggling with the pain from the fibromyalgia some days, but I know that is gonna be a problem anyway. Now if I could just get out walking more, and start losing some weight, I imagine it would help to reduce my weight and possibly help with the pain.
Anyway, life goes on....!!
There have been many other situations to deal with around here, some of which I can't get into. One thing that happened at the end of our holidays, is that Earl developed pain in his one leg, and after he returned to work, found it very painful and hard to stand on. The leg also swelled up, and had a large bruise on it, so he ended up going to emergency only to learn that he had a rather large blood clot in his leg. They put him on pain medication as well as blood thinners, and he had to keep his leg up and rested for quite some time as well as not being able to drive, so I had to be driving him all over for awhile. Thankfully he is now back to work, and we are anxious for his first pay check to finally come in, and try to get some bills paid, before they start shutting things down on us.
The girls are both in high school, and J is still working at McD's. It's gonna be a lot more work for her this year and next so hopefully she's able to get through it all. B got involved in the basketball team shortly after school started and she had been enjoying that every since. K is also there this year. They are growing up so fast!!
Well, we are into November now, and it won't be long till winter arrives. Yikes....not looking forward to that, or the winter driving and especially not in letting J drive through it. It can be pretty rough driving around here.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Prayers Needed
Tues. Feb. 12, 2008
It's 3:30 am and I just can't seem to sleep. I'm fighting off a headache, dealing with muscle pain from the fibromyalgia, fighting sinus problems, and trying to calm a mind that won't seem to stop going this night. I'm worried about my cousin who is going through tests for cancer, and I know her family is going through an awful time right now as they also worry about their daughter. Although she is 30 years old and old enough to make her own decisions and choices in life, I'm concerned that she may be in grave danger. She's been dealing with alcoholism, and as a result of this, lost her son to children's aid. Because of that she's just been drifting in and out of relationships and has just recently been badly beaten up and terribly abused by this guy she moved in with. It has only been a few weeks since he broke her jaw, and left her badly bruised and afraid. He was arrested for abuse, and has just got out of jail. I just learned that she has now left the safety of her families home and gotten onto a bus to go back to this guy. She has been offered all sorts of help, and has a family who wants to help her, but she won't accept their help.There is deep concern about what might happen to her once this guy has her back in his place.
Please, if anyone reads this, could you please pray for her. Her name is Cheri. I'm so worried about her and the choices she is making in her life, which I fear are only clouded over by the alcohol and pain of what she has been going through.
Father God, Please place a hedge of protection around Cheri and keep her safe from all harm. Please help her to realize her need to have you back in her life, held in the palm of your hands and surrounded by your love. In Jesus name. Amen.
It's 3:30 am and I just can't seem to sleep. I'm fighting off a headache, dealing with muscle pain from the fibromyalgia, fighting sinus problems, and trying to calm a mind that won't seem to stop going this night. I'm worried about my cousin who is going through tests for cancer, and I know her family is going through an awful time right now as they also worry about their daughter. Although she is 30 years old and old enough to make her own decisions and choices in life, I'm concerned that she may be in grave danger. She's been dealing with alcoholism, and as a result of this, lost her son to children's aid. Because of that she's just been drifting in and out of relationships and has just recently been badly beaten up and terribly abused by this guy she moved in with. It has only been a few weeks since he broke her jaw, and left her badly bruised and afraid. He was arrested for abuse, and has just got out of jail. I just learned that she has now left the safety of her families home and gotten onto a bus to go back to this guy. She has been offered all sorts of help, and has a family who wants to help her, but she won't accept their help.There is deep concern about what might happen to her once this guy has her back in his place.
Please, if anyone reads this, could you please pray for her. Her name is Cheri. I'm so worried about her and the choices she is making in her life, which I fear are only clouded over by the alcohol and pain of what she has been going through.
Father God, Please place a hedge of protection around Cheri and keep her safe from all harm. Please help her to realize her need to have you back in her life, held in the palm of your hands and surrounded by your love. In Jesus name. Amen.
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
God's Creations
Pretty little petals
So soft and smooth
Falling from the flowers
Drifting to the ground.
Delicate and silky
Lovely and small
So many bright colours
That shine for us all.
Flowers that bloom
Within the garden beds
Each one so special
And so wonderfully made.
All are God's creations
His gifts to the world
Each with it's own beauty
And so lovely to behold.
So soft and smooth
Falling from the flowers
Drifting to the ground.
Delicate and silky
Lovely and small
So many bright colours
That shine for us all.
Flowers that bloom
Within the garden beds
Each one so special
And so wonderfully made.
All are God's creations
His gifts to the world
Each with it's own beauty
And so lovely to behold.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Another New Year !
We are already half way through the month of January, 2008. This month the weather has been crazy. We have gone through mild spells and made some record highs for this time of year. All the snow melted and disappeared, and it was just like a nice spring day for a little while. Now the temp has dropped again, and once again, the ground is white. Mind you there isn't a whole lot of the stuff out there, but just enough to make it slippery, and to remind us that winter is still here.
In less than a week, my lovely daughter will be turning 16 years of age. Another milestone in her life, and a year for many changes, thoughts and opportunities. One thing I know she is planning to do is to get her driver's license. A smart thing to get in todays society, and with the way things are nowadays. Transportation is an important and neccessary part of our lives, and independence and having the ability to drive ones self is really a good thing for any person to have. It might be difficult going through the various processes to reach that point of independence, but I think it is well worth it, and something I would advise everyone to get, especially other women.
According to my daughter she is now officially old enough to get a tatoo if she wants to. She is now old enough to drive. She is now old enough to make more important decisions for herself. She also claims she is old enough to walk out of here and get her own place. I wonder how many teens her age thing the same thing?
We are always in a rush to grow up, to gain our independence and freedom, to go out into the world, and to do the things we think we need to rush into. If we only had the ability to know what we know now, and to walk these same pathways as a young teen again. I know I would certainly make some changes in what I would do, and try to learn from what others have already done.
I know I would certainly have lived at home longer, and taken advantage of a free or cheap place to live, three meals on the table, a place to keep my laundry done, my own room, and only a few chores to do. Of course there were things my parents and I didn't always agree with, but it was still a lot easier than trying to manage out there all alone, and try to attend school, go to work and pay for everything. There are certainly better things one can do for one's self, and better ways to spend one's money. With the cost of schooling, especially college and university, it's always good to have something to put away towards ones education.
Still life goes on. Now I will see what happens around here with my life, and that of my beloved children.
Blessings.
In less than a week, my lovely daughter will be turning 16 years of age. Another milestone in her life, and a year for many changes, thoughts and opportunities. One thing I know she is planning to do is to get her driver's license. A smart thing to get in todays society, and with the way things are nowadays. Transportation is an important and neccessary part of our lives, and independence and having the ability to drive ones self is really a good thing for any person to have. It might be difficult going through the various processes to reach that point of independence, but I think it is well worth it, and something I would advise everyone to get, especially other women.
According to my daughter she is now officially old enough to get a tatoo if she wants to. She is now old enough to drive. She is now old enough to make more important decisions for herself. She also claims she is old enough to walk out of here and get her own place. I wonder how many teens her age thing the same thing?
We are always in a rush to grow up, to gain our independence and freedom, to go out into the world, and to do the things we think we need to rush into. If we only had the ability to know what we know now, and to walk these same pathways as a young teen again. I know I would certainly make some changes in what I would do, and try to learn from what others have already done.
I know I would certainly have lived at home longer, and taken advantage of a free or cheap place to live, three meals on the table, a place to keep my laundry done, my own room, and only a few chores to do. Of course there were things my parents and I didn't always agree with, but it was still a lot easier than trying to manage out there all alone, and try to attend school, go to work and pay for everything. There are certainly better things one can do for one's self, and better ways to spend one's money. With the cost of schooling, especially college and university, it's always good to have something to put away towards ones education.
Still life goes on. Now I will see what happens around here with my life, and that of my beloved children.
Blessings.
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Our cat Scooter
Scooter is around 7 months old. No one really knows for sure as she was found shivering and huddled behind a local restaurant one spring day with her one ear shredded and bleeding. She was only a little kitten when she was found, and she had to be taken to a shelter, then rushed to a vet. They tried to save it, but it was damaged too much, and the vet had to ambutate the ear. After that she was placed in a foster home until she got better, and could be put up for adoption. That's when we found her. She was so cute & cuddly and loving, that we just couldn't resist her. Some people might not think her so cute because of the missing ear, but I've learned that you can never judge anyone by their outward appearance. She now has her forever home, and some other companions, and we love her lots.
Review of 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
Another year is almost over. We are already almost half way through December. People are counting down the days till Christmas. I haven't even put up my Christmas tree or decorations or done many of the things that I usually so. It just seems that the hustle and bustle of the holiday season gets busier every year with so many things to be done. I used to try and get all of my holiday preparations done early...sending out Christmas cards, writing letters, going shopping, baking, putting up the Christmas tree, and cleaning and decorating around the house. Hmmm, I don't have very many of those jobs done this year.Things are becoming far too commercialized, and expensive. There are just too many demands put upon my time and those of my family. On top of that I am having a lot of problems with my health, and my ability to do the things that I once did.
This year there will be some gifts, but not a whole lot. This year I will be lucky to get any real cleaning and decorating done either. I've come to realize that there are limits to what I am capable of doing and of what I will do at this point. I hate the fact that I can't do the things that I once used to. There is only a week till Christmas. It is physically impossible for me to do it all. Hopefully the girls will be able to pitch in and help out, however I have my doubts on that. Both of them seem to have a lot of demands on their time as well, mostly with jobs or babysitting, school work and their own social life, so we shall see.Recently we added another cat 7 months old to our already busy household of two dogs and a cat. Despite the added financial cost, they provide a lot of extra love, and companionship, and I would be lost without them. I love animals, and if I had a bigger place I would have a houseful of them. For now I will enjoy the ones we have.My dad continues to go for dialysis three times a week, and although his vision is much worse, he is still able to manage on his own at this point in time, along with my help.
I continue to help out with administrative work in our church, and at the moment have had a lot of extra work to do there as we have recently joined up with another church, so it should be interesting as we get into the new year. Thankfully I still have my special friends, and hopefully will make some new ones there as well.I still live with constant 24/7 pain from my arthritis and the fibromyalgia, along with the chronic fatigue and various other health issues that I seem to routinely deal with. Some days it is a real struggle just to get about and do the things that I must do. Often there are things that don't get done, and jobs that I used to get done that are suffering. Perhaps one day I will be blessed to see a miracle happen. Life goes on, and so must I.
Times are changing, and if I want to go with the flow, I need to make changes as well. Somehow I need to learn to manage my time and my schedule a little better, and do certain things when my health permits.
For now I just try to do what I can, and to just take things "One Day at a Time
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Christmas is over for another year. At the last moment, well a few days before Christmas, Becca decided to dig the Christmas tree out of the crawl space and put it up after I had spent some time cleaning a spot in the dining room area. We don't use it as a dining room. That's where the dogs beds are, and my one desk, and a few other things, so why not a tree. Our house is crowded, and small. There is no extra space to even put the things that we already have, but hey, the tree is up, and it was nice to see it there, as well as to have a place to put the parcels under.
Everyone was tired this year and stressed out. I wasn't feeling good with either a flu bug or something and Becca was down sick with a cold and sinus infection, fever , ear aches etc. All the things that made us both want to say bah humbug....let me just crawl in bed and sleep. Instead, I felt that I had to keep going, had to make sure there was a proper meal, had to make sure that everything was done for the sake of my family and my father. There was a lot of fuss & fighting as we all stressed out and tried to clean up and pick up things to make sure my father wouldn't fall over anything as he can't see much. As well, I was worried about the mess and afraid with it being Christmas someone might happen to drop by as well. I certainly wasn't after perfection, but I just wanted to see some things picked up and out of the way so there was a little more space for getting through.
On Monday we went to visit my son & his family and to exchange gifts and make sure the grandchildren had their parecels as they were going away for Christmas to their other grandparents. We had pizza, but as the evening progressed I began feeling sicker and sicker and by the time we got home, all I could do was crawl in bed. Good thing I woke up in the middle of the night to make sure that 'santa' was able to take care of things.
I did manage to get dinner taken care of the following day and make sure everyone was ok before I crashed and had to lay down. I never did partake of the Christmas dinner, but by the time they had all finished eating, I was able to get some gravol down and spend a little time with everyone, as well as my visiting nephews before I had to go back to bed. That was at least good, and thankfully my hubby was able to take dad down home. Good thing as it wasn't long before we were all in bed.
The days are passing swiftly and we are almost at the end of another year. Just one more day....
I wonder how many people look back at the past year and can highlight special events, projects and things they've done or people that they've spent time with? I always feel at a loss for words when it comes to sharing the events of the past year with others. My life doesn't really hold any special highlights or at least not many that I care to mention.
During this past year daughter #1 turned 15 years old and started working at her first real job at McDonalds. She also spent a day going to work with a friend, and ended up working at Coles Book store part time for 3 months as well. So her life has consisted of school, working and friends.
Daughter #2 started doing a lot more babysitting as her sister gradually gave her jobs up. She turned 13 years old, and started her last year of grade school with plans to enjoy her last year together with friends, and seeing what all she could accomplish in her various sports events and running, and doing quite well too.
Hubby spent much of his time either working or puttering around with his guns and going to the gun range with his brother. He also spent time fighting in arbitration with his work and after two years of this nonesense, and being given a demotion, he finally managed to win and get back a job he had applied for as a mechanic in the cold end which meant more pay thankfully as it has been a difficult time. His mood continues to swing, and a good deal of the time things have been very unpleasant around here.
Me, well I seem to spend all of my time either running my father back and forth to dialysis, or running errands such as banking and shopping for him. As well, I seem to be constantly running #1 back and forth to work, or #2 to sports or babysitting, or trying to accomplish a few things around the house while dealing with constant sickness and continueing pain.
We did manage to get away to a cottage for three weeks this year and it was the first time ever that we had that much time together. Unfortunately it is a vacation that wasn't much of a holiday and one I'd sooner forget.
I started spending some of my time volunteering at the SPCA once a week when I was able to go in, and working with the cats giving them some freedom and play time. We also picked out a cat that was there, and decided to go all the way in actually getting another cat...something we have thought about for quite some time. So now we have two dogs, and two cats. This is something I really enjoy, however my health has also interferred in my getting out to do this as much as I'd like. I really do love spending time with the animals.
We seem to see more of my son & family over this past year and things are a lot better between us all. On the off -side to that, I rarely see any of my side of the family as they choose to stick to themselves and go their own way.
That's my year... no fabulous vacations, so special events, no special projects around the house, and nothing memorable to share.
I certainly hope that the coming new year of 2008 proves to be a much better year for everyone amongst family & friends, in relationships, and financially, so as I look ahead to this year drawing to a close, I just want to say this......
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY, AND MAY YOU EXPERIENCE GOD'S LOVE AND BLESSINGS IN YOUR LIFE THROUGHOUT THIS COMING YEAR OF 2008.
Another year is almost over. We are already almost half way through December. People are counting down the days till Christmas. I haven't even put up my Christmas tree or decorations or done many of the things that I usually so. It just seems that the hustle and bustle of the holiday season gets busier every year with so many things to be done. I used to try and get all of my holiday preparations done early...sending out Christmas cards, writing letters, going shopping, baking, putting up the Christmas tree, and cleaning and decorating around the house. Hmmm, I don't have very many of those jobs done this year.Things are becoming far too commercialized, and expensive. There are just too many demands put upon my time and those of my family. On top of that I am having a lot of problems with my health, and my ability to do the things that I once did.
This year there will be some gifts, but not a whole lot. This year I will be lucky to get any real cleaning and decorating done either. I've come to realize that there are limits to what I am capable of doing and of what I will do at this point. I hate the fact that I can't do the things that I once used to. There is only a week till Christmas. It is physically impossible for me to do it all. Hopefully the girls will be able to pitch in and help out, however I have my doubts on that. Both of them seem to have a lot of demands on their time as well, mostly with jobs or babysitting, school work and their own social life, so we shall see.Recently we added another cat 7 months old to our already busy household of two dogs and a cat. Despite the added financial cost, they provide a lot of extra love, and companionship, and I would be lost without them. I love animals, and if I had a bigger place I would have a houseful of them. For now I will enjoy the ones we have.My dad continues to go for dialysis three times a week, and although his vision is much worse, he is still able to manage on his own at this point in time, along with my help.
I continue to help out with administrative work in our church, and at the moment have had a lot of extra work to do there as we have recently joined up with another church, so it should be interesting as we get into the new year. Thankfully I still have my special friends, and hopefully will make some new ones there as well.I still live with constant 24/7 pain from my arthritis and the fibromyalgia, along with the chronic fatigue and various other health issues that I seem to routinely deal with. Some days it is a real struggle just to get about and do the things that I must do. Often there are things that don't get done, and jobs that I used to get done that are suffering. Perhaps one day I will be blessed to see a miracle happen. Life goes on, and so must I.
Times are changing, and if I want to go with the flow, I need to make changes as well. Somehow I need to learn to manage my time and my schedule a little better, and do certain things when my health permits.
For now I just try to do what I can, and to just take things "One Day at a Time
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Christmas is over for another year. At the last moment, well a few days before Christmas, Becca decided to dig the Christmas tree out of the crawl space and put it up after I had spent some time cleaning a spot in the dining room area. We don't use it as a dining room. That's where the dogs beds are, and my one desk, and a few other things, so why not a tree. Our house is crowded, and small. There is no extra space to even put the things that we already have, but hey, the tree is up, and it was nice to see it there, as well as to have a place to put the parcels under.
Everyone was tired this year and stressed out. I wasn't feeling good with either a flu bug or something and Becca was down sick with a cold and sinus infection, fever , ear aches etc. All the things that made us both want to say bah humbug....let me just crawl in bed and sleep. Instead, I felt that I had to keep going, had to make sure there was a proper meal, had to make sure that everything was done for the sake of my family and my father. There was a lot of fuss & fighting as we all stressed out and tried to clean up and pick up things to make sure my father wouldn't fall over anything as he can't see much. As well, I was worried about the mess and afraid with it being Christmas someone might happen to drop by as well. I certainly wasn't after perfection, but I just wanted to see some things picked up and out of the way so there was a little more space for getting through.
On Monday we went to visit my son & his family and to exchange gifts and make sure the grandchildren had their parecels as they were going away for Christmas to their other grandparents. We had pizza, but as the evening progressed I began feeling sicker and sicker and by the time we got home, all I could do was crawl in bed. Good thing I woke up in the middle of the night to make sure that 'santa' was able to take care of things.
I did manage to get dinner taken care of the following day and make sure everyone was ok before I crashed and had to lay down. I never did partake of the Christmas dinner, but by the time they had all finished eating, I was able to get some gravol down and spend a little time with everyone, as well as my visiting nephews before I had to go back to bed. That was at least good, and thankfully my hubby was able to take dad down home. Good thing as it wasn't long before we were all in bed.
The days are passing swiftly and we are almost at the end of another year. Just one more day....
I wonder how many people look back at the past year and can highlight special events, projects and things they've done or people that they've spent time with? I always feel at a loss for words when it comes to sharing the events of the past year with others. My life doesn't really hold any special highlights or at least not many that I care to mention.
During this past year daughter #1 turned 15 years old and started working at her first real job at McDonalds. She also spent a day going to work with a friend, and ended up working at Coles Book store part time for 3 months as well. So her life has consisted of school, working and friends.
Daughter #2 started doing a lot more babysitting as her sister gradually gave her jobs up. She turned 13 years old, and started her last year of grade school with plans to enjoy her last year together with friends, and seeing what all she could accomplish in her various sports events and running, and doing quite well too.
Hubby spent much of his time either working or puttering around with his guns and going to the gun range with his brother. He also spent time fighting in arbitration with his work and after two years of this nonesense, and being given a demotion, he finally managed to win and get back a job he had applied for as a mechanic in the cold end which meant more pay thankfully as it has been a difficult time. His mood continues to swing, and a good deal of the time things have been very unpleasant around here.
Me, well I seem to spend all of my time either running my father back and forth to dialysis, or running errands such as banking and shopping for him. As well, I seem to be constantly running #1 back and forth to work, or #2 to sports or babysitting, or trying to accomplish a few things around the house while dealing with constant sickness and continueing pain.
We did manage to get away to a cottage for three weeks this year and it was the first time ever that we had that much time together. Unfortunately it is a vacation that wasn't much of a holiday and one I'd sooner forget.
I started spending some of my time volunteering at the SPCA once a week when I was able to go in, and working with the cats giving them some freedom and play time. We also picked out a cat that was there, and decided to go all the way in actually getting another cat...something we have thought about for quite some time. So now we have two dogs, and two cats. This is something I really enjoy, however my health has also interferred in my getting out to do this as much as I'd like. I really do love spending time with the animals.
We seem to see more of my son & family over this past year and things are a lot better between us all. On the off -side to that, I rarely see any of my side of the family as they choose to stick to themselves and go their own way.
That's my year... no fabulous vacations, so special events, no special projects around the house, and nothing memorable to share.
I certainly hope that the coming new year of 2008 proves to be a much better year for everyone amongst family & friends, in relationships, and financially, so as I look ahead to this year drawing to a close, I just want to say this......
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY, AND MAY YOU EXPERIENCE GOD'S LOVE AND BLESSINGS IN YOUR LIFE THROUGHOUT THIS COMING YEAR OF 2008.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Just checking in
It's been awhile since I last came on here, or sat down to do any of my writing of poetry or short stories on another site. I can't believe how quickly time seems to move on by. It's hard to keep up with all the various things going on in my life, and often feeling sick or dealing with the constant, never ending pain that I seem to suffer with.
My life seems to have taken on an endless schedule of running back and forth with my dad as I take him back and forth to dialysis three mornings a week, as well as take him out shopping, and to various appointmets. To add to that, my eldest daughter has taken on a job working for McDonalds. The hours are really crazy. I never know what time of day or night I'm going to be driving her there, or picking her up. So far her earliest shifts have been to start at 7:00am, while the latest shift was 11:15 pm. Then recently she did two overnight shifts, on a Friday and Saturday evening, working from 11pm to 7am. Not too bad if you managed to get some sleep prior to the first shift, but when you've attended school, and then been out with friends before you go into work. This coming weekend she's going to start an early shift and be there before 6am. Yuk....I really hate these varied hours. Then to add to this, my youngest was delivering newspapers twice a week, as well as doing a variety of babysitting. Spring came and went, and so did the summer. I never did get to go to our friends place to go swimming in their pool. We did finally get to go away on vacation time. This year we were blessed to have three weeks away at our favorite holiday place in Bancroft, Ontario. I really love it up there, and love being in the cottage looking out over the lake. When I'm there, I look forward to a swim in the lake, watching the sunsets, going fishing, listening to the call of the loons, and watching them swimming and diving down into the water. This year, J was allowed to have a friend come up and join her for the first week, and the second week my son and his family came up to stay in the cottage right next to us, so we were able to spend time with them and spend time with the grandchildren. During that week, we spend some time travelling to a few different places such as Algonquin Park. The kids seemed to enjoy stopping by at the various museums, and lakes etc.
Unfortunately the whole vacation was ruined by someone being most unpleasant with everyone there, and basically making it a very stressful time for us all. By the time I got home, I wished I had never gone away. I could have enjoyed myself better at home all by myself, or gone to spend time with some friends. Anyway, that never happened!! I'm really not sure I ever want to take another family vacation again. I came home feeling very low, and along with not feling very well, found myself fighting a number of emotions, and regretting some past decisions. Anyway, life moves on!
With Sept. came some changes, and the girls started back to school, and I returned to my busy, schedule of running both them and my father around.
Now we are officially into autumn, although it's pretty much over now and we are entering the winter season. This past weekend was our local Santa Clause Parade, and also the big one in Toronto. I missed them both unfortunately, and I have always loved watching the various parades. Oh well, there are always things on TV and often these events are much the same anyway. Just another year.....
My life seems to have taken on an endless schedule of running back and forth with my dad as I take him back and forth to dialysis three mornings a week, as well as take him out shopping, and to various appointmets. To add to that, my eldest daughter has taken on a job working for McDonalds. The hours are really crazy. I never know what time of day or night I'm going to be driving her there, or picking her up. So far her earliest shifts have been to start at 7:00am, while the latest shift was 11:15 pm. Then recently she did two overnight shifts, on a Friday and Saturday evening, working from 11pm to 7am. Not too bad if you managed to get some sleep prior to the first shift, but when you've attended school, and then been out with friends before you go into work. This coming weekend she's going to start an early shift and be there before 6am. Yuk....I really hate these varied hours. Then to add to this, my youngest was delivering newspapers twice a week, as well as doing a variety of babysitting. Spring came and went, and so did the summer. I never did get to go to our friends place to go swimming in their pool. We did finally get to go away on vacation time. This year we were blessed to have three weeks away at our favorite holiday place in Bancroft, Ontario. I really love it up there, and love being in the cottage looking out over the lake. When I'm there, I look forward to a swim in the lake, watching the sunsets, going fishing, listening to the call of the loons, and watching them swimming and diving down into the water. This year, J was allowed to have a friend come up and join her for the first week, and the second week my son and his family came up to stay in the cottage right next to us, so we were able to spend time with them and spend time with the grandchildren. During that week, we spend some time travelling to a few different places such as Algonquin Park. The kids seemed to enjoy stopping by at the various museums, and lakes etc.
Unfortunately the whole vacation was ruined by someone being most unpleasant with everyone there, and basically making it a very stressful time for us all. By the time I got home, I wished I had never gone away. I could have enjoyed myself better at home all by myself, or gone to spend time with some friends. Anyway, that never happened!! I'm really not sure I ever want to take another family vacation again. I came home feeling very low, and along with not feling very well, found myself fighting a number of emotions, and regretting some past decisions. Anyway, life moves on!
With Sept. came some changes, and the girls started back to school, and I returned to my busy, schedule of running both them and my father around.
Now we are officially into autumn, although it's pretty much over now and we are entering the winter season. This past weekend was our local Santa Clause Parade, and also the big one in Toronto. I missed them both unfortunately, and I have always loved watching the various parades. Oh well, there are always things on TV and often these events are much the same anyway. Just another year.....
What Lurks in the Shadows
Deep in the shadows, along the line of trees,
I catch a glimpse of shining eyes, that seem to follow me.
I pause to take a closer look, but nothing can I see
It's just that eerie feeling, that runs deep down in me.
I feel my body tremble, from the ever growing cold
As I go further down the path, not sure of what I'll see.
Afraid to stop I look around, and see those piercing eyes.
I know there's something lurking, in the shadow of the trees.
Then suddenly it comes to me, with fear and clarity
The danger that is out there, in the shadow of the trees.
I try to walk on faster, and hope I show no fear
As each step takes me closer, to the safety of my car.
I see a sudden movement, out of the corner of my eye
But I force myself to move on, with an ever growing speed.
Then suddenly I look up, as I go around the bend
And there not far ahead of me, I finally see my car.
Again I glance around me, as I quicken up my pace
And that is when I realize, I now can see the face.
No longer is it hiding, in the shadow of the trees
It is the biggest wolf I've seen, since I first came to be.
I rifle in my pocket, till my keys are in my hand
Then with not much time to spare, I take off on the run.
I dare not look around me, as every moment counts
I reach the car and jump inside, and finally slam the door.
Those piercing eyes are out there, beside my driver's door,
I tremble as I see them, not two, but I count four.
The time just seems to slip by, I sit and shake in fear
Then finally start the motor, as I stare outside the car.
No longer will I come here,
Especially when its dark
I do not wish to risk my life,
As the prey to this great wolf.
copyrights by "Dawn"
I catch a glimpse of shining eyes, that seem to follow me.
I pause to take a closer look, but nothing can I see
It's just that eerie feeling, that runs deep down in me.
I feel my body tremble, from the ever growing cold
As I go further down the path, not sure of what I'll see.
Afraid to stop I look around, and see those piercing eyes.
I know there's something lurking, in the shadow of the trees.
Then suddenly it comes to me, with fear and clarity
The danger that is out there, in the shadow of the trees.
I try to walk on faster, and hope I show no fear
As each step takes me closer, to the safety of my car.
I see a sudden movement, out of the corner of my eye
But I force myself to move on, with an ever growing speed.
Then suddenly I look up, as I go around the bend
And there not far ahead of me, I finally see my car.
Again I glance around me, as I quicken up my pace
And that is when I realize, I now can see the face.
No longer is it hiding, in the shadow of the trees
It is the biggest wolf I've seen, since I first came to be.
I rifle in my pocket, till my keys are in my hand
Then with not much time to spare, I take off on the run.
I dare not look around me, as every moment counts
I reach the car and jump inside, and finally slam the door.
Those piercing eyes are out there, beside my driver's door,
I tremble as I see them, not two, but I count four.
The time just seems to slip by, I sit and shake in fear
Then finally start the motor, as I stare outside the car.
No longer will I come here,
Especially when its dark
I do not wish to risk my life,
As the prey to this great wolf.
copyrights by "Dawn"
My Father's Love
My Father's Love
Lord I really need you so
I need you in my life
I ask dear heavenly one,
That you will ease my strife.
Come into my heart today
Bless my family and my friends,
And let them know your sweetest love
Through all that you can send.
Please dear Lord, I ask of thee
Please bless my life as well.
Show me of your love this day
And keep me out of hell.
Give my family peace and joy
And teach me to survive,
Grant me faith and hope today
Show me all, while I'm alive!
Show me how to walk in love
And also with great pride
Let me be your heavenly child
So you can be my guide.
Father how I worship you
And seek to know your will
You died upon that lowly cross
And yet you love me still.
You gave your life for everyone
For all mankind you died
And then you rose again that day
To always be my guide.
Because of all that you went thro'
I now have been set free,
So I can place my trust in you,
For all eternity.
copyrights "Dawn"
Lord I really need you so
I need you in my life
I ask dear heavenly one,
That you will ease my strife.
Come into my heart today
Bless my family and my friends,
And let them know your sweetest love
Through all that you can send.
Please dear Lord, I ask of thee
Please bless my life as well.
Show me of your love this day
And keep me out of hell.
Give my family peace and joy
And teach me to survive,
Grant me faith and hope today
Show me all, while I'm alive!
Show me how to walk in love
And also with great pride
Let me be your heavenly child
So you can be my guide.
Father how I worship you
And seek to know your will
You died upon that lowly cross
And yet you love me still.
You gave your life for everyone
For all mankind you died
And then you rose again that day
To always be my guide.
Because of all that you went thro'
I now have been set free,
So I can place my trust in you,
For all eternity.
copyrights "Dawn"
Monday, April 16, 2007
Do you appreciate God's many blessings and all that you have?
Today is Monday, April 16th, 2007
Officially according to the calendar, we are already into the spring of our season. Does the weather indicate that it's spring? Well I suppose you could say that most of the snow has disappeared, but this morning it was trying to snow. Yes, it's the middle of April and it's trying to snow. It's bitter cold out there, with a really strong wind. I need to go out and do a little grocery shopping, but I really don't feel like going out in the cold today. Hopefully it will start to warm up this week and we will get some nice spring like temperatures. It would be nice to get out there and not have to wear a big heavy coat. Even the dogs are thinking the same thing. When the sun comes out they ask to go out, but once they get out there, they realize just how cold it actually is.
Even with the grey overcast skies, there is still some light up there and at times it looks like the sun might come out. The birds are still flying around, and looking for food. The red breasted robins are getting a full looking belly as they build their nests and prepare to lay eggs and wait for their young to arrive. At times I hear the shrill pitch of the blue jay up in one of the trees, and it trys to scare off some other bird, or a squirrel that is trying to take over someone's nest. The squirrels are out running all over the place gathering up food, and checking around for their mates. As the trees sway gentle in the wind, they continue to draw moisture from the ground and from the air, as they slowly form little buds underneath their bark. Many gardens are already full of brightly colored flowers such as crocus, and daffodils, and other spring beauties.
No matter how miserable the weather seems to be, there is always something of great beauty out there, and one of God's many wonderful creations.
In the meantime, I am able to sit here in the warmth of my own home, and to enjoy looking outside at the beauty of God's many creations around me. I know I am blessed to be able to make the choice of staying inside or going out into this weather.
There are a lot of homeless people out there...whether by choice or not, but they are stuck out in this weather, and all types of weather conditions. I wonder just how many of them are able to appreciate God's blessings, and the many beautiful things around them? Then again, I wonder how many people who are blessed are able to recognize those things and to appreciate what they have? What do you think?
Officially according to the calendar, we are already into the spring of our season. Does the weather indicate that it's spring? Well I suppose you could say that most of the snow has disappeared, but this morning it was trying to snow. Yes, it's the middle of April and it's trying to snow. It's bitter cold out there, with a really strong wind. I need to go out and do a little grocery shopping, but I really don't feel like going out in the cold today. Hopefully it will start to warm up this week and we will get some nice spring like temperatures. It would be nice to get out there and not have to wear a big heavy coat. Even the dogs are thinking the same thing. When the sun comes out they ask to go out, but once they get out there, they realize just how cold it actually is.
Even with the grey overcast skies, there is still some light up there and at times it looks like the sun might come out. The birds are still flying around, and looking for food. The red breasted robins are getting a full looking belly as they build their nests and prepare to lay eggs and wait for their young to arrive. At times I hear the shrill pitch of the blue jay up in one of the trees, and it trys to scare off some other bird, or a squirrel that is trying to take over someone's nest. The squirrels are out running all over the place gathering up food, and checking around for their mates. As the trees sway gentle in the wind, they continue to draw moisture from the ground and from the air, as they slowly form little buds underneath their bark. Many gardens are already full of brightly colored flowers such as crocus, and daffodils, and other spring beauties.
No matter how miserable the weather seems to be, there is always something of great beauty out there, and one of God's many wonderful creations.
In the meantime, I am able to sit here in the warmth of my own home, and to enjoy looking outside at the beauty of God's many creations around me. I know I am blessed to be able to make the choice of staying inside or going out into this weather.
There are a lot of homeless people out there...whether by choice or not, but they are stuck out in this weather, and all types of weather conditions. I wonder just how many of them are able to appreciate God's blessings, and the many beautiful things around them? Then again, I wonder how many people who are blessed are able to recognize those things and to appreciate what they have? What do you think?
Sunday, April 08, 2007
IS ANYONE EVEN OUT THERE READING HERE ANYMORE?
Hello Everyone! Hope you all had a great Easter weekend. I'm wondering just how many of you even use your blogs anymore, or post to them. For so long no one seemed to be posting anything, or reading, so I just seemed to stop coming here. I've decided I want to start coming back and posting once in awhile. I actually belong to another site called Gather.com where I go to write, read others writing, and just basically share my stories, poems and life with others who do the same thing. I've really enjoyed spending time there writing. I don't proclaim to be that great at it, but it's something I enjoy, so I've decided that is what's most important, thus the reason I I've decided to share the odd thing that I've written on here.
How is everyone, or perhaps should I say is anyone even out there reading the blogs and writing on them anymore?? I sure hope so. I feel like I've been losing contact with people, and either sick all of the time or dealing with the constant pain that I have. You see this winter the pain got so bad in my one leg that it was all I could do to even stand up or walk. My knee gave out one day and the pain that shot down my leg and all through it almost made me pass out. Nothing seemed to touch the pain. I couldn't move my leg or do anything for quite some time. For quite some time after that I was having to use crutches to try and get about. I went to the ER but they said there wasn't anything they could do for me. They took some X-rays but determined that there was no cartiladge left between the knee and as it shifted it was bone on bone causing pain. I need a knee replacement...or actually two of them, but I need the left one done first when and if they get me an appointment with the dr/surgeon. Still waiting to here something, although it's been over a month since the dr. said she would arrange an appointment for me. No wonder those who can afford it are going to the states to get things done down there.
Easter weekend is drawing to a close. It was a cold snowy weekend here. Rather uneventful, and not one of the nicest. We really did not do much to celebrate it and I didn't waste my time buying a turkey or trying to go to all the fuss and bother of cooking one. I have been sick on and off for the past month, and I was not up to doing anything. I also cannot spend a lot of time standing because of the pain in my leg. I had two little chicken's in my freezer so I took them out and cooked them along with a little lamb roast that I had. I was going to have my father over, but he wasn't feeling good, my husband spend the whole day just laying around sleeping and my youngest daughter wasnt' feeling good either. My oldest daughter was babysitting, so I just didn't worry about a whole lot of fussing. Saturday I had to take my father to dialysis, then run some errands and babysit my grandchildren so we ended up having spaghetti dinner with my son & his family. Today was Sunday, so we went to church and came home to just relax. My knee and leg are really hurting probably from the cold and standing so much today. My youngest, is babysitting, and the other one is off at a friends for the afternoon and night. My husbands been playing around with his 'hobby', and watching westerns on tv, so I spend the time trying to get my computer fixed and working....yea I seem to have succeeded.
So what did YOU do for Easter weekend??? I'd love to hear from someone, and hope you're all keeping well.
God Bless!!
How is everyone, or perhaps should I say is anyone even out there reading the blogs and writing on them anymore?? I sure hope so. I feel like I've been losing contact with people, and either sick all of the time or dealing with the constant pain that I have. You see this winter the pain got so bad in my one leg that it was all I could do to even stand up or walk. My knee gave out one day and the pain that shot down my leg and all through it almost made me pass out. Nothing seemed to touch the pain. I couldn't move my leg or do anything for quite some time. For quite some time after that I was having to use crutches to try and get about. I went to the ER but they said there wasn't anything they could do for me. They took some X-rays but determined that there was no cartiladge left between the knee and as it shifted it was bone on bone causing pain. I need a knee replacement...or actually two of them, but I need the left one done first when and if they get me an appointment with the dr/surgeon. Still waiting to here something, although it's been over a month since the dr. said she would arrange an appointment for me. No wonder those who can afford it are going to the states to get things done down there.
Easter weekend is drawing to a close. It was a cold snowy weekend here. Rather uneventful, and not one of the nicest. We really did not do much to celebrate it and I didn't waste my time buying a turkey or trying to go to all the fuss and bother of cooking one. I have been sick on and off for the past month, and I was not up to doing anything. I also cannot spend a lot of time standing because of the pain in my leg. I had two little chicken's in my freezer so I took them out and cooked them along with a little lamb roast that I had. I was going to have my father over, but he wasn't feeling good, my husband spend the whole day just laying around sleeping and my youngest daughter wasnt' feeling good either. My oldest daughter was babysitting, so I just didn't worry about a whole lot of fussing. Saturday I had to take my father to dialysis, then run some errands and babysit my grandchildren so we ended up having spaghetti dinner with my son & his family. Today was Sunday, so we went to church and came home to just relax. My knee and leg are really hurting probably from the cold and standing so much today. My youngest, is babysitting, and the other one is off at a friends for the afternoon and night. My husbands been playing around with his 'hobby', and watching westerns on tv, so I spend the time trying to get my computer fixed and working....yea I seem to have succeeded.
So what did YOU do for Easter weekend??? I'd love to hear from someone, and hope you're all keeping well.
God Bless!!
He Is Risen
Twas many, many years ago
When Jesus Christ was born,
So very many years ago,
Upon that special morn.
A child who came to teach us
About our Father in Heaven
He came to help His people
To share with us good news.
He was the chosen one of God
To come and help us all
Reaching out to all around Him
As He helped both sick and poor.
He knew what God expected
And He did all that He could
To serve His loving Father
He obeyed and followed Him.
And when the people came for Him
Saying that He'd broke the law,
Accusing Him of falsehoods,
And for that He'd have to die.
They cursed and called him names,
Put a crown of thorns upon His head,
Then made Him carry a huge cross,
And beat Him all the way.
They nailed him to the wooden cross
Put holes within His hands,
Then hammered more into His feet,
And made the cross to stand.
Before the angry throngs of men,
They hung him from that cross,
And there on each side of Him,
They also hung two thieves.
They left Him there to die
A gruesome, painful death,
And when His time was over
God reached out in love to Him.
His mother and disciples
Took His body off that cross,
They wrapped Him up in linens,
Then laid Him within a tomb.
They then observed the Sabbath
And all rested as they should
Then took both spice and fragrant oils
To the place where Jesus laid.
The stone was rolled out from the tomb,
No body did they find,
But two men stood in shining robes
Telling them He was not dead.
They told them He was risen,
No longer in the tomb,
The Son of Man was rescued
Crucified, but now alive.
Jesus appeared unto His disciples
Saying "Peace be unto you"
He gave them understanding
Of the Scriptures we should learn.
He told them it was written
For the Christ to suffer death
And that on the third day after
He would rise up from the dead.
And as He stood there blessing them,
The heaven's opened up,
And God reached down and took Him
To live with Him above.
So on this Easter weekend
Think upon these many things,
Remember that our Father,
Loved each and everyone of us.
Christ died upon the cross that day
For the sins of all mankind,
So all we really need to do
Is repent of all our sins.
If we will do this thing He asks,
Believing all He did,
Then we will have eternal life
And go to be with Him.
Remember Christ this weekend
In everything you do,
And know that He is right there,
Watching over you.
God Bless and keep you throughout this Easter weekend. Remember that He Is Risen, and looking out for you. Remember that He loves you, and for eternity will be with YOU.
Dawn M.
April 5th, 2007
When Jesus Christ was born,
So very many years ago,
Upon that special morn.
A child who came to teach us
About our Father in Heaven
He came to help His people
To share with us good news.
He was the chosen one of God
To come and help us all
Reaching out to all around Him
As He helped both sick and poor.
He knew what God expected
And He did all that He could
To serve His loving Father
He obeyed and followed Him.
And when the people came for Him
Saying that He'd broke the law,
Accusing Him of falsehoods,
And for that He'd have to die.
They cursed and called him names,
Put a crown of thorns upon His head,
Then made Him carry a huge cross,
And beat Him all the way.
They nailed him to the wooden cross
Put holes within His hands,
Then hammered more into His feet,
And made the cross to stand.
Before the angry throngs of men,
They hung him from that cross,
And there on each side of Him,
They also hung two thieves.
They left Him there to die
A gruesome, painful death,
And when His time was over
God reached out in love to Him.
His mother and disciples
Took His body off that cross,
They wrapped Him up in linens,
Then laid Him within a tomb.
They then observed the Sabbath
And all rested as they should
Then took both spice and fragrant oils
To the place where Jesus laid.
The stone was rolled out from the tomb,
No body did they find,
But two men stood in shining robes
Telling them He was not dead.
They told them He was risen,
No longer in the tomb,
The Son of Man was rescued
Crucified, but now alive.
Jesus appeared unto His disciples
Saying "Peace be unto you"
He gave them understanding
Of the Scriptures we should learn.
He told them it was written
For the Christ to suffer death
And that on the third day after
He would rise up from the dead.
And as He stood there blessing them,
The heaven's opened up,
And God reached down and took Him
To live with Him above.
So on this Easter weekend
Think upon these many things,
Remember that our Father,
Loved each and everyone of us.
Christ died upon the cross that day
For the sins of all mankind,
So all we really need to do
Is repent of all our sins.
If we will do this thing He asks,
Believing all He did,
Then we will have eternal life
And go to be with Him.
Remember Christ this weekend
In everything you do,
And know that He is right there,
Watching over you.
God Bless and keep you throughout this Easter weekend. Remember that He Is Risen, and looking out for you. Remember that He loves you, and for eternity will be with YOU.
Dawn M.
April 5th, 2007
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